Monday, April 20, 2009

how to become jovial

my day started so happy. :) good way to start off the week. i'll share my list on how to be merry.

6 simple ways on how to become jovial :)

1. have a goal on whatever. when you are nearing that goal, you are motivated ergo you feel instant gratification. 

2. embrace positive thoughts. it will be returned to you. read: law of attraction.

3. grab the mic and sing your heart out. because it's fun!

4. do something physical. like dance or workout or yeah. lol that happy feeling secreted hormone called endorphin is a fact. endorphin releases when under strenuous workouts done in a long duration such as running, swimming, boxing, aerobics, martial arts and other ball sports. 

5. eat healthy. it's also a fact that what we eat determine our mood. so eat foods rich in omega-3 fats which can be found in salmon, sardines and tuna and other fish. also beans, spinach, berries, skim milk and eggs are happy foods. 

6. have a spa. take 15 minute of your time in a sauna or steambath because it increases blood circulation and detoxifies the skin making you glow. then a massage relieves muscle pain and stress. 

with these, you'll be feeling great in no time. :)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

after great pain a formal feeling comes

by emily dickinson

After great pain a formal feeling comes--
The nerves sit ceremonious like tombs;
The stiff Heart questions--was it He that bore?
And yesterday--or centuries before?

The feet, mechanical, go round
A wooden way
Of ground, or air, or ought,
Regardless grown,
A quartz contentment, like a stone.

This is the hour of lead
Remembered if outlived,
As freezing persons recollect the snow--
First chill, then stupor, then the letting go.



life is never fair. you get what you don't want and when you get what you want, you will want more. it's human nature. and it's crazy.

i've always used reason over feelings. but there are certain moments when your feelings overpower reason. by letting feelings win makes me weak. when that happens, i'm doomed. it doesn't matter if i have the talent to move away so quickly.  i don't understand why it always have to be one sided. 

stoicism made me live life. i've undergone different levels of  pain but when hurt comes i become cold and numb. that's the key. i haven't really let anyone reciprocate my feelings. it's a self-defense to vulnerability. as what emily said, when in pain, first you chill, then you'll feel a mental numbness or stupor, and finally you let go. 





Friday, April 17, 2009

serendipity

i'm not superstitious but i love to read and follow horoscopes. but how weird what says about me today at astrolis.com....


You will be preparing for some upcoming time off by spending some time with a book on some kind of alternative medicine, holistic treatment, or searching the Internet for a good spa. You need to give yourself a treat and the time or money will soon free up for it. 


what the hell? i did had a good spa yesterday and yeah i'm reading earlier something about herbal teas for health reasons and yeah i'm preparing for a trip to see my relatives soon. damn. 

missing link

why does everything has to be a yin and yang? can it just stay to the favorable part? in the dawn, i'm ecstatic and in the dusk, i'm down poured. a single word made my day bad. read: gossip. who doesn't love to gossip but when it comes to you it feels bad. especially when you are not there to defend yourself. i felt defeated in a war i am not present to contend. 

it's about my former unhealthy labor, code name vogue. they have accusations. my first point, i'm not stupid and never will be. as far as i know i did great and do what should be properly done. i can answer any shit hole instantly but i'm not physically there and they don't have the right to reach me so the end result is a big puzzle. second point, i'm the apprentice hence my superior should know more and should have been reliable. but that's not the case. let's not wash off our hands from responsibilities. and from what i heard madam superior has no reaction because m.s. wrote about all the negative feedback in paper black and white so she can be safe and it's not her group anymore. wow that's the leader! my third point, could they just stop pinpointing whoever just because the person left and is happily living with her own life? the sad thing is it's the culture. it's not as if it's the very first time with what happened to me. everyone goes through it. sad sad place. whatever is there, it's the responsibility of the person presently handling it because it's her job. period.

i take good care of my reputation and won't ever enter a fight unfairly. there are certain people who are just plain rude and loves to pass blame to others when technically it's none of my business. i don't take the issues in my head because they are issues. it's like telling a news story with no confirmation from the subject. isn't that bogus? i'm the missing link to the whole scene and i'm untouchable. it's a done deal so live with that. i moved on already and i hope they do too. it bothered me how unhappy these people are. i just had to release this emotional distress so i can sleep sound and good. i hope they sleep well too. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

back to basics

whoever said that 'a picture can paint a thousand words' is a true wise man. in this technological era, photos can look as if it's not the authentic one. even my graduation picture is photoshopped with eternal youth. 

so i give my standing ovation to french elle for putting celebs with no alteration. 


monica belluci with no make-up on


they should have used the original one....

lola madonna

Monday, April 13, 2009

bring it on

holiday is over. first day of work and my first triumph. i woke up really early at 6 am and jogged around the village for 40 minutes. it's a big deal for me!!! since for the past 2 weeks i woke up at noontime. hopefully i can keep going to reach my goal. so yeah, bring it! haha



i loved this movie when i was in high school when i did pep. hahaha

Sunday, April 12, 2009

lady-in-waiting

funny personality quizzes are very common at facebook and i just love to answer and waste time on them. it's the surprise result that people wait for. 

so i took.. which shakespearean character would you be? drum roll.....

You are Cleopatra, Queen of Egypt, of whom was said, "Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale her infinite variety: other women cloy the appetites they feed; but she makes hungry where most she satisfies." -------- The original Samantha (of Sex in the City), your ability to seduce lies not only in your physical beauty, but the power of your will. You have no compunctions using your sexuality to attract those in power, not only for your own pleasure, but to protect your interests. But that does not mean your aren't capable of true love. Will your desires lead to ecstacy, or ultimate doom?

fierce! fitting for a queen. :D

i took this quiz inspired by the tudors. just finished watching season 1 and i swear i'd love to go back in time if only the royal men look exactly like them. i so love their costumes and i am fascinated how it is being royal. 



yum!!!! jonathan rhys meyers as king henry viii

damn!!! henry cavill as charles brandon duke of suffolk

loveleeee!!!! pretty men is my weakness. period.

it won't be that hard to be a lady-in-waiting at court if they are your masters. hihi

Saturday, April 11, 2009

optimism doesn't hurt

i used to be optimistic at all times until i worked in the real world. i've undergone despair, sorrow, anxiety and stress that was ancient to my little sheltered universe. and yes, i lost optimism. it's true what sociologists say that you adapt and acquire certain behavior in the group you are closely with. as for me, i have worked with the anna wintours in the workplace and alas... it almost made me to be one. well i won't deny that i had the inner bitch in me but it triggered more there. 


 they say she's the alter ego of the devil wears prada's miranda priestly 


since i left code name vogue, life is very easy. i won't regret ever staying and leaving. i had things that i come to know that i am capable of doing. i come to know myself more. i always like pushing myself to the limit. and it really pushed me to the maximum but had to leave anyway. now, i'm focused to myself and my well-being. so i smile and think positive. maybe that's when i'll come to know real happiness. :)

Thursday, April 9, 2009

can't get enough of cici

my inspiration in having a toned body. hehehe my gym trainer said i trimmed already.. around xx pounds more to lose. haha darn why is it so hard to stay fit? but i'm happy being a health buff now. can't wait to reach my goal! :)


ciara and justin timberlake's love sex and magic.. hot!!!!



never ever.. this is my current theme song....


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

ally mcbeal

for the past few days, i just wanted to disappear for awhile by not being online and text up people because i felt depressed with this quarter-life crisis thing. then one afternoon, i screened over cable channels and got tuned at an old ally mcbeal episode then found myself laughing. i quickly searched for our dvd of full seasons and started to watch the first season. 

i'm a dvd addict and could could watch an entire season in one sitting. but ally mcbeal's has at least 23 episodes in one season as opposed to the normal 13 episodes in a season (according to my tv production prof). i watched some of the episodes back when i was in high school which was 10 years ago (damn i feel old!) but wasn't able to follow. it was a huge hit then before sex and the city. realizing now that the content is mature for me before that i can now relate to. ally is a 28 year old successful lawyer who is never contented with her life and her idealism to happiness is by having kids with the love of her life. throughout the 5 seasons, it presented the different views and levels of love, friendship, dating, and relationships. 

coincidentally, a friend of mine who is near her late 20s who is in a relationship told me that having one is not the key to happiness and i agreed. it's not the objective of happiness. it adds color to your life by bringing emotions of joy and pain. the true key to happiness is being content. ally is a clinically depressed woman with her funny hallucinations because she's never been contented with her life, in or out of a relationship. that's my nirvana. 




the childhood sweetheart of ally, billy whom she followed through law school and found him as her married co-worker. they became good friends but he passed away in season 3.




the funny john cage dance of barry white song


the best season for me would be season 2. ally had closure why billy broke up with her in college and her friendship deepened with the rest of the characters. there are setbacks though in the latter seasons. there's no continuing story of some characters why they were gone and the last season is too fictional having a 10 year old daughter genetically through fertility project. i most liked the script and tone. their conversations are very witty and intellectual. in the end, she didn't get the love of her life to a man but to her daughter. she moved from boston to new york analogous to moving on with her life and hopeful with love. :)