ally mcbeal

for the past few days, i just wanted to disappear for awhile by not being online and text up people because i felt depressed with this quarter-life crisis thing. then one afternoon, i screened over cable channels and got tuned at an old ally mcbeal episode then found myself laughing. i quickly searched for our dvd of full seasons and started to watch the first season. 

i'm a dvd addict and could could watch an entire season in one sitting. but ally mcbeal's has at least 23 episodes in one season as opposed to the normal 13 episodes in a season (according to my tv production prof). i watched some of the episodes back when i was in high school which was 10 years ago (damn i feel old!) but wasn't able to follow. it was a huge hit then before sex and the city. realizing now that the content is mature for me before that i can now relate to. ally is a 28 year old successful lawyer who is never contented with her life and her idealism to happiness is by having kids with the love of her life. throughout the 5 seasons, it presented the different views and levels of love, friendship, dating, and relationships. 

coincidentally, a friend of mine who is near her late 20s who is in a relationship told me that having one is not the key to happiness and i agreed. it's not the objective of happiness. it adds color to your life by bringing emotions of joy and pain. the true key to happiness is being content. ally is a clinically depressed woman with her funny hallucinations because she's never been contented with her life, in or out of a relationship. that's my nirvana. 

the childhood sweetheart of ally, billy whom she followed through law school and found him as her married co-worker. they became good friends but he passed away in season 3.

the funny john cage dance of barry white song

the best season for me would be season 2. ally had closure why billy broke up with her in college and her friendship deepened with the rest of the characters. there are setbacks though in the latter seasons. there's no continuing story of some characters why they were gone and the last season is too fictional having a 10 year old daughter genetically through fertility project. i most liked the script and tone. their conversations are very witty and intellectual. in the end, she didn't get the love of her life to a man but to her daughter. she moved from boston to new york analogous to moving on with her life and hopeful with love. :)