love your planet

my family cooperated with the Earth Hour that i didn't even know of that it was last night! but we did anyway closed our lights at home. it's supposed to make a stand against the effects of global warming. i am totally affected by it due to the weather change. it's supposed to be summer now and it keeps on pouring every afternoon for the past few days. so the effect on me is my dry cough which is grueling to my throat. :(

here's the official video from earthhour.org :)

i found at youtube on Earth Hour 2009 Philippines. the post result. :)

it just feels good to be socially aware and show that you care. 

spot the difference

complex magazine april/may 09

"So what: I have a little cellulite. What curvy girl doesn't!? How many people do you think are photoshopped? It happens all the time! I'm proud of my body and my curves and this picture coming out is probably helpful for everyone to see that just because I am on the cover of a magazine doesn't mean I'm perfect." -- Kim Kardashian

amen to that. it's not a little cellulite dear but i still commend you for your insights. i have a lot of that hahaha (fine i'm working hard on it!).

pinay dreamer

got this idea from my friend ana... as i was saying to another friend.. we just live once in a lifetime so you might as well set your goals high that even if you were not able to reach it, at least you will get something close to that. 

10 things i should have before 30:

1. own a business

2. million pesos savings

3. poledancing expertise and stayed being fit

4. my own pad

5. upgraded my car

6. a french speaking tongue

7. cooked meals

8. lived in a foreign country

9. own a designer wardrobe

10. tied the knot

i recommend you to this as well regardless of your age now just replace the number. it's fun! :D

my instant generation

have you even heard of 'generation y?' cool-sounding huh? next to the spice girls' pepsi jingle 'generation x.' as my intuitive self, i searched for it at wikipedia and says that this is the generation that were born from 1978 to 1995. it also described that:


The Generation Y are sometimes called the "Trophy Generation", or "Trophy Kids,"[15] a term that reflects the trend in competitive sports (as well as many other aspects of life) where "no one loses" and everyone gets a "Thanks for Participating" trophy. Although it seems that this educated, technologically advanced, success-driven generation would be ideal workers, corporate Human Resource (HR) departments are reporting the opposite"[15] Some employers are concerned that the members of Generation Y have too great expectations from the workplace and desire to shape their jobs to fit their lives rather than adapt their lives to the workplace.[16] 

--  from wikipedia.com

true enough, as the youngest in the brood and having a huge generation gap, the members of my family thinks that my job duration is bad by not sticking for more than one year which is most common in my generation. they are not aware of this 'generation y' thing that we were brought up in school where teachers taught us to be successful when you want to even as a kid. as the budding of technology arises, everything is instant. instant messaging, instant call, instant oatmeal, instant noodles, instant sandwich from fastfood chains, instant search through typing without checking the library and everything else. ergo, my generation wants everything instant. 

that's why most of us are frustrated when we can't get something right away because we're living in a world where everything is accessible. there are a lot of things that i want to do and still can't figure out which. there are so many doors to choose from. even in relationships and dating. we choose based on looks, personality, wit, etc. having a criteria and having so many options. 

sometimes i wish i lived during the renaissance so i don't have a hard time choosing where everything is set on who to marry, what you will become in the society, what your leisure will be, etc. men and women through ages fought for change, rights and freedom. but at this point in time, i can feel the very con of too much liberty. 

snoop kitty

when it comes to privacy... when and how is enough? i know celebrities, politicians or whoever made the headline always cries for it and hated paparazzi. unless they wanted the attention like paris or those who would pay in hollywood for them to get photographed and be in the tabloids. and now it has evolved if you wanna be in-the-know. the thing i can't live without next to water, the net.

a lot of stuff are going on since people really are individualists. lots of blogs and social networking popped like mushrooms. in my home for example all of us are online in real time having our own laptops or pc's and doesn't talk to one another. we just chat. sites like friendster, facebook, multiply, twitter or what-not can be a good and bad thing. i come to communicate again with long lost friends and acquaintances. i confess that i stalk people there and i'm sure some also do the same thing. but i don't like letting the whole world know what's going on with me. i need privacy.

i learned to set my facebook account's privacy setting where whatever i type on my wall will not be published or other details. i'm relieved that i do have control over what to publish or not. i love to surf and read everything i see interesting. then came google map. like a scene in james bond where they would use the satellite feed to find a wanted man. then i came across wikimapia. i am amazed how i can view the globe in top view, again like a sci-fi/action film. i naturally searched to see my own home and how i'm surprised to know. someone tagged my house with a caption of my name. it's really really creepy even if that person doesn't mean harm but the thought that anyone can find my location is way scary.

something like this at wikimapia

it's overboard that you can't even delete it. there's even a link for the 'deleted places' and you will still see the tags. some people even upload their pictures and know their locations. i don't mind if other people like it because it can be used for good then again for bad. tagging my house is snooping and i have a right to my privacy. 

what crisis?

crisis. a word that is so common today. recession in a lot of first world countries is going on because of the affluent's high maintenance of their lifestyle like a king in a third world using maximum credit bills who doesn't pay on time. it's a domino effect since we live in a global village. 

here in my third world, nothing exaggeratedly changed. except for those who work overseas or those who enslave themselves for multinational ones. last that i know of around november 2008 when i was still in advertising, studies shown that nearly 80% of 88 million people in the philippines are considered poor. meaning they are those who live in the provinces and slums. we are used to being poor and i thank God that at this time and age, poverty saved us from the rest of the world. 

my family's small business was affected by the asian economic crisis in 1997 since we import goods from hongkong who imports from japan. to the point that we are still struggling to come back to its prime. we roughly lost around php 17,000,000.00 ($ 6.8M). at that time, it was big. i was living a princess' life in an underdeveloped country until we're hit by the crisis. my dad provided me with everything and spoiled me from all the material luxuries and lifestyle a girl can have. then as the years progress, we never felt we lost that hard because my dad was a very jolly person. i never felt it. although we had to cut back on buying things and lessened our dining out and shopping. we grew up okay but i sometimes wonder what if that crisis never happened. could i had the chance to study abroad or yearly vacation overseas. hence, my parents did provide me well. of course, it's not all about the money. 

lately i've been contemplating about a lot of stuff. am i actually in a quarter-life crisis? so i typed in at wikipedia and found a checklist.

on emotional aspects... characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

•  feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level -- check
  
• frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career -- check, check, check 
  
• confusion of identity -- oh i very much know myself
  
• insecurity regarding the near future -- check
  
• insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals -- check
  
• insecurity regarding present accomplishments -- nah im proud of it
  
• re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships -- check. you really don't know who are sincere versus the plastics until you really get to know them.
  
• disappointment with one's job -- uber check
  
• nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life -- check. maybe that's why i want to take my mba.
  
• tendency to hold stronger opinions -- check. i'm just opinionated with almost everything.
  
• boredom with social interactions -- not with social interactions. i'm just way bored.
  
• loss of closeness to high school and college friends -- i stay in touch with very few selected ones. hi to my college friend maan who said she's an avid fan of this blog. :)
  
• financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.) -- so check
• loneliness -- check.....
• desire to have children -- check. omg. 
• a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you -- i don't care about other people's business

i agree in 11 out of the 16 statements. so i am and i don't know the cure. i am praying that i'll get over this and pick up the little pieces for it to be whole again. to those who pretty much feels the same way, pat your shoulders from me, i know it'll be alright. :)

"if i was a rich girl.. no man can test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end cause i'd have all the money in the world if i was a wealthy girl.." -- gwen stefani

love thyself

how far will one person go in the name of beauty? well one, you must have money. the sessions are quite expensive. i was offered a cheap liposuction but i never liked the idea to go under the knife and i'm afraid of not needles but the surgery. i'd rather pay for the pricey laser treatments than that. then again it's a matter of the moolah which i barely have. 

i have insecurities in my body, of course i'm a woman. but i don't feel bad about it. i wish it were like this or that but i'm okay with it. i eat sweets and other junk food and then make sure to burn it all in an hour of grueling sauna-like bicycling room. i'm stepping up the challenge to myself to do again the phase 1 of southbeach diet which i've been prolonging to do. it means no carbs for 2 weeks which will make me hot-tempered and hot-headed. it's going to be a detox and a withdrawal syndrome when you take away the sweets away from me. 

oh sugar and starch, i have to avoid you for 2 weeks for me to achieve my goal. the anticipated result is for me not to crave for you. synonymous if i want to forget somebody. it just takes time. but i'm sure of the end result... hell great.